For the first time, I am writing my work under the pressure of a release schedule. Usually, I write 4–5 days before the release date. However, for CHAPTER 4, I am writing as if I am being chased by the release date, but I feel that this should not make it feel forced.
Do you think there is a truly correct answer to a thought? One person may see something as a crime against them, while another sees it as a fair side. For some others, it might not mean anything at all because they have never felt it. I mean, even though everyone has problems, not necessarily the problems experienced by one person can be felt by another. We may know that a problem might not be as heavy as what others are facing. However, if we compare it with others’ reflections, there are aspects that also need to be considered. There might be someone facing a big problem, but there are aspects that make that problem more bearable, such as a good family, responses, and care from those around them.
However, such things cannot be compared to oneself. In terms of problems, no one wants to be in your situation, and surely you often think the same. From the many sentences I have published, I just want you to remember this: “Live well, go through it, and strive for what you dream of. Essentially, your life is you living it. Whatever your choice, even if there are many other options, choose the one you believe in the most and that makes you happy to pursue. There is nothing truly good in this world; anything and however it may be can be good or bad for you. However, from all of that, what needs to be grounded is your mind.
Do you remember when I said that your thoughts determine your perspective? Even if you are sure about your choice, it doesn’t mean that it will be the easiest path. Sometimes, because our dreams and hopes are high, it is that very thing that traps us into giving our best for that choice. Because we want the best, the path is not that easy. However, whatever the outcome, it is better to have tried and made an effort than to not have tried at all. There are no mistakes that are truly wrong; every mistake you make, whether careless or unintentional, provides extraordinary lessons in our lives. Just because we cannot feel the bad things that have happened, we strive to make things better. That has existed since you felt that problem. I am not someone skilled in providing solutions to your problems, but I help you to think again about what truly represents you. “You will grow old with yourself.” Your parents have chosen to grow old together, and the good and bad that you can learn are the unintended consequences of their actions. Essentially, they are also like you; this is their “first time.” Your father is experiencing fatherhood for the first time in his life, as is your mother. Friends, siblings, anyone — they are also experiencing for the first time in their lives being connected to you. “Forgive anyone and in any form for the sake of your own goodness.”
Live well. Eat the food you love, drink in the atmosphere you enjoy, watch the movies you dream of living, and talk to the people you trust. Even though we know that death will come alone, at least there will be nothing you truly regret or weigh down for your departure. My mother once said, “Live well, wherever and with whomever. In any situation, live well. You cannot prevent what will come to you, but you can give your best self to the things you choose that are good for you.” Perhaps in the future, there will no longer be a definite schedule for when I will write works like this. This will be the last chapter that follows the rules. After this, I will inform you when the next chapter will appear. Live well, chase the dreams that motivate you. Do not force anything. If it is good and you have given your best, then let it flow naturally afterward. We will be just fine.
Ruswanda Clarck - November 6, 2024